Thursday, January 11, 2007
20/2/07 TueHappi cny 07' everyone! =) cny 1st day at nite went out wif amy to ang bao river eat n walk. todae went ther again wif mom. yest slept whole day, then at nite went out wif zhanhe to watch movie Ghost Rider. tml work again wor, sianz.. but tml gt company cny luncheon. fri bdae still hv to work leh..but after tat miting queenie, eva, isabel n keith. think gonna eat dinner n then watch movie norbit. jus nw bought sth bck hm for my rm decoration. a mini "tree" wif swirling green, blue n red lights. nice nice =) last fri went st james wif raymond. i love movida => sure go ther again de. so cool la..the latin spanish music. Met up wif cutie andy over ther =) hope can see him soon again wor...poor thing, sick nt well yet..
11/2/07 Sun
3 mre days to v-day lolll. gonna hv a lonely v-day tis yr again. i rem i stayed hm last yr. haha. anyways, went to club on fri. had a fabulous time eating food on fri. afternoon went to coffeeclub wif new colleagues to eat garlic prawn pasta & mudpie. yummy. at nite went to ding tai fung at paragon wif amy for dinner. then went to club after tat. saw the project superstar 2 daren tan ther. so shuai. haha. tml workin again wor. i brought my heels out for fri nite out wif amy but then i left it in my office!!! *fumes. baby amy bought me new turquoise heels frm url & Inc. thnks hehe. my feet is recovering fast. gddd. i can walk n jump liao. haha. my red colour hair is still niceeeeeee. i nida study korean lata :( teacher gonna test on tue wor. spent some $ on clothes again. but tis time round on working clothes. hahah. bdae bdae! cant wait for it to come!
7/2/07 wed
it's been quite some time since i updated. i m reali angry wif blogspot.i stil cant post new entry. i started my new job todae..events coordinator.so far so gd. i'm gonna hv to go to pakistan for a wk thereabt in May - overseas exhibition projects. i m tking over 5 projects. stress. last fri was the end of attachment. hurray! we all went to mos to club n prior to tat, dinner at fish & co at suntec. my colleagues were nice. they treated me to a reali sumptious farewell dinner. slept over at queenie's place until sat afternoon then went hm slp again until sun morn wake up do report lolll.mon handed in.slacked ard in town wif eva n queenie. tue korean cls started. my feet is throbbin//*sobz. damn pain. stupid blister. y become swollen?? i hv difficulty walkin.
25/1/07 Thuri hvent updated for some time. nth much happen. met eva on mon for dinner. saw fiona lol. i m soo tired right nw i wanna slp..i m @ work 0_0. the aircon is tellin me slp slp slp lollll. my bck is aching. i hv been stayin up reali late these few nites to send out resumes n all. sent out 3 on tue, gt 1 call on wed. sent out 4 yest so far no response. loll. i tink i'll send a few out everyday bah. lata suppose to go for the mda focus grp thingy wif eva n queenie.but queen sick leh. & i m unable to contact eva aso.duno is it still on anot lolll.
I'd like to dedicate this song lyric Winter Love to someone who has been in all my heart all this while...think it's been abt 4 yrs ardy since we broke off...I'll love you still always & forever even if you love someone else ardy...i'll be your friend, not as a lover to hug u, kiss u, or hold your hands..tat way, u'll stay wif me forever & i'll nv hv to endure the pain of losing u all over again//be happi
As shining winter fairies come floating downI kissed your smiling picture because I had nothing else to do
At that long line outside of the movies, we vowed
To never stand in line here together again
But since my heart is next to yours
I still miss you even as a friendBut I can't turn back ever again
I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakesUntil the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?
I'll never forget you
Since the moment that I was alone,I've realised what true loneliness is
These overwhelming feelings in my heart that won't stop flowing out
Now, the way to love a person
Is so important that I think a person shouldn't forget it
No matter how many times my address changes
I'll never let go of that voice or that dream
Even if you love someone else as time flows by
I'll still remember you
Our destined meeting and the warmth we shared
I'm glad that it was you, and I can say it from my heart
Until we meet someday again
We can't stop the future from coming
The feeling of sadness can quickly become forever
Even if I get wounded when I'm happy
When I've fallen in love with a someone
Just alive
I love you, I want to see you again
With a kiss, expressed alongside ten billion snowflakes
Until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace
Baby, even if you forget me
Is it okay for me to still love you?I'll never forget you
Thur nite
i jus came bck hm.movie apocalypto is nt bad. shows me insights into life. hmmz. my legs r sore frm the pair of new heels. i bought bdae present for xuzhi on the spot a silver crystal studded ring! :) i choose one wor...nice expppp. but comes wif 1 yr warranty though. i aso bought a bdae gift for eve as well.hope she'll like it. i gonna eat supper n slp tml work again.sianz. i shall trnsfer $ to the yahoo seller again tml..bought new stuff 3 items frm her. saw Mr Danny Yeo Jun Wei (ex deejay/ np lecturer) at cineleisure. exchanged greetings n all. hahz! queenie's so gonna kill me la i always get to bump into him somehow or another lollz.
Thur
me going off in 3 min yay! go see show wif xu zhi. tink wil be hm late so quixk blog nw. wil miss another episode of jin zhi yu nie again. 11 mre days to go.tahan...! i spend $ again jialat. i m like suddenly addicted to shoppin n totally lost interest in clubbin. tink ther's a tertiary fling party tonite at mos. went the other time..sux. so many ppl n nt nice.guys r overwhelming. nxt dat gt work too was totally shagged. i spent like $400 in total on buying stuff liao lo.zzz.met dear queenie todae for lunch. tata!
Wed
i did alittle bit of work todae only. slacked again. met the corporate vendor. i tink i spoke nonsense to him. literally hv no idea wad i was in for. roped my colleague in to save me.lolll. met zhanhe jus nw ..suppose to c show, but then when i gt to NP to wait for him, then wait for bus, then didnt come, then tk taxi cus raining, then eat dinner blah blah time's up. so end up we went hp browsing. i wanna discontinue wif M1 le. gonna sign new line wif either singtel or starhub. m1 too exp leh. i tak bolek tahan. i'm tired. i finally received my piggy keychain le which i bought online. so cute. gonna mit mr xuzhi tml for show.
Tue
i was dead drunk yest. thnks queenie & andy..for sendin' me hm & explainin' to my parents. lucky they din flare up. i skipped work todae..feigned sick & took mc. went out wif parents for awhile. bought a blazer frm G2000. i'm tryin' veri much nt to tink abt it. tml mus work wear wear abit mre formal to work cus i nid to meet a corporate vendor on behalf of my marketing manager. jus as well. i nid to tk a formal pic of myself to put in my resume.
Mon
i jus went to the washroom to cry secretly. i'm under alot of stress n i m very upset.mood is veri bad. he replied after i sent him so many msgs. it hurt me.i shld hv knew it wud. isnt it wad i wan? shldnt i be happi? y m i so devastated? 1 hr mre to go hm...pls time pass faster
Moni'm at work nw.nth to do.tink the whole morn wil be spent slackin. bosses r busi wif meetings to bother abt me. i sent him msgs tis morn. i asked him to tel me off instead of ignoring me.probably mre effective tis way. i jus nid tis final push to give up totally. i m almost ther. i thot i cud forget during the past wks but i cant. he dun lose anything...he only stand to gain cus i wun irritate him anymre isnt it? i hope he replies to kill all my remaining hopes. he's doin himself a favour if nt for me. cn save the trouble of entertainin my nonsense. dun nid to waste time. darn..it damn hurts tat he dun care.so wad if i miss him alot.doesnt matter. i'm gonna try sneakin away frm the briefin after work cus new boss givin a talk. i m only an attachment student.left last mth.dun think it matters i go or nt.
Sun
slept literally the whole day. woke up at noon to go hse downstairs mit huisiang pass him textbk. he suggested hving lunch together only after i went bck hm.zzz. nv say earlier, i was ardy lying down on my bed. hving bckache.period came.pek chek.
Sat
i can't post a new entry again. i seriously wonder did they read the email i send to em. nvm..i shall create a new blog and well...transfer everything over ther. i was dead drunk las nite.tok nonsense to my frens in msn..called huixiong too..din kno wad i was doin. cried alot. went shoppin @ bugis wif eve todae. spent alot of $. bought a black bah frm url & inc., a bronze belt, a dorothy perkins pink shirt, a black sphag top & a necklace. i was shocked to hear tat two of my sec sch frens r getting married to each other. cus of erm pregnant. well, but they seemed reali hapi & xinfu.i'm happi for em' too.i wish i can hv tat kind of bliss someday too. my abdomen has been experience bouts of pain. tink period's cumin'.lolllz.sianz.
Fri
i'm still unable to post new entry. i called him yest. he ans. i hung up at 1st cus i was in shock mode. i didnt expect him to pick up. in fact, i wish he didnt. sometimes, it's realli better off nt knowing. i called a second time. he ans again. tis time i spoke. normal convo. i asked him out. he said ok. when i asked him if he did get my msgs when i send him 2 days ago, he reply sayin he change new hp yest etc. well..does it affect? is he lying? cus i called the old no n it gt thru to his new no. after hanging up, i aso sms him to his old no. n he reply me using his new no. i said meet up on a sat. he said ok wil cfm timing n all. i mean..if u're so unwilling to mit, jus tel me straight. y bother to cover up ur lies i mean ther r loopholes. i m angry n reali heartbroken. i kno i shldnt jump the gun of concludin whether he did not intend to inform me of his new contact no. etc. is it becus he didnt kno who the caller is n he ans n when he kno it's me, n when i qn him he became frantic n ans me sth else he had no choice but to tel me cus i saw thru the deceit? y do u hv to lie? i m at work nw..n i m so upset i hv to blog to release the tenstion or my tears wil start droppin.fuck. i jus wan to go hm nw asap hug my pillow lie in bed cry myself to slp. i cant stand tis mental torture. i msg him nicely jus nw a few times..i wanted to push forward the miting date.didnt wan to let him hv so much time to think n react. no response so far. wil ther even be one? my purpose of the mit up? to ask him a simple qn n if he cant ans..i'll walk away. i m veri tempted to flare up nw n jus sms n scold him n jus tel him to go to hell for putting me thru all these. but my fren andy tels me to calm down n wait. wait wait wait. hw long mre mus i wait before i can get myself off tis hook?
Thur 11/1i'm soooo angry wif blogspot. wad no mre beta change to google a/c...nw i cant even create a new post. i send them a email notification of the technical glitch.dun even kno if they can reply. nw i can only edit my old post.wth man.
Wed 10/1i'm sooo freakin' tired. bck hm nt too long ago. colleague drove us hm. i'm still unable to contact him..haix.i nida go rest nw.tata.
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